I recently went out with some friends of mine, to try and get my mind off of my break-up, I was thrust right back into the club scene, and although the scene and people had not changed, i sure have. I looked around, and saw all of these little girls, in tiny dresses, with big heels. I felt as if they looked like they where twelve and went into mommy's closet to play dress up. Now, I am far from fat, I will say this, but these girls where bordering on unhealthiness. and guys where all over them.
What is the appeal there? I must be upfront though, I can look back about 4 years, and yes i was one of those girls. we called ourselves the very verys. Very tan, Very thin, Very popular, Very fun.
but i have to say, im just not at that point in my life anymore. Your 20's is all about finding yourself. I have heard this numerous times from everyone. but maybe i am getting to that point, where i dont need to look in the clubs to see who i am. I lived that life for so long, and it really got me nowhere.
No guy is ever going to take you serious with a tiny dress on that reveals your little boy shorts, with your hair looking like something out of a bad 80's hair band, with double fisting your drinks, and then having your friends carry you out of a bar... how attractive is that? I understand that my generation is the generation of pleasure, and you can't tell us what to do... but seriously, come on now.
I recently came across an old friends facebook, yes i said it, i stalk people on facebook. and i looked through her pictures. she had not changed a bit, still out partying, using drugs, and moving on from guy to guy.
I am sorry if i want more than that. I want a life. I want marriage, a house, the white picket fence... the whole nine yards. but it just seems that people in their 20's are not like that anymore... who said you have to have everything figured out by 25, that was my motto, but now... im 26, should i be figuring it out more?
but here i sit, at the edge of yet another failed relationship, and yet i feel that i havent learned nothing from it. This has gotten off topic....
So i say, to you little girls in tiny dresses, I dont want to compete with you, hell i cant compete with you, but i wish you luck, you can have the clubs back... I dont want them...
need a new outlet for fun... anyone have any ideas? something that doesnt involve drinking, and slutty clothing?
next blog... "Put the donuts down" if i did you can too...
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